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i think the feelin in my lip/cheek is startin 2 come back haha apparently i need a lotta anethesia to become numb so it took like a lil over an hour to get my 4 teeth pulled but now its over and let the recovery and vicodin kick in...
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bored bored
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So i finally got a new phone after losing my last one who knows where and gettin an old school not too bad lg phone..but latley its been skrewy n not lettin me recieve or dial out and our plan doesnt expire till end of sept when im already at school :/ so we switched my account to the primary one so i could switch phones. i hooked up the whole blue tooth thing n got everything charged n went to call my house to see if it all worked...i guess the guy didnt activate my cell b/c i cant recieve or make calls either..sooo im stuck in cell phone limbo and i have a phone but i cant use it. c'est triste lol. hopefully itll get resolved tomorrow. i just hope no one called or texted me after like 6 today :/ so until tomorrow...

ive been sleeping later n later lately, but i get so much more energy at night..i like feed off of the darkness its weird. i should sleep earlier. :/ but i am gettin a lot done at night haha

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accomplished
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ive realized that i am very unmotivated rite now. unless i have to do somethin 4 a friend, which i am always glad to do, otherwise, i wont do it. its pretty sad actually. i was pretty motivated a week ago, n i had plans 4 summer n stuff i had to do, and the only way im going to end up doing them is if i convince myself that it's for my friends, which is really is..so hopefully thatll keep me going long enough..and i was actually kinda happy b/c at least i had that ring i got from the deb party..and today i woke up n realized that it was gone. i wore it in the morning, but i was washing dishes or somethin so i took it off. it has yet to be found. eh..least it lasted a week rite? :/ this is why i cant buy jewlery. i have no memory of wehre i put these things. i honestly do not remember taking it off..or most of the past 2 days neways so that mite be it. who knows nemore. hopefully 2nite i mite be able to get out n chill wit friends, b/c apparently my mom lied n were leaving on sunday which means not seein friends for a whole week..there goes my motivation. o well. ok sry 4 the pointless post. again. hope ur enjoyin ur day/fathers day (worse hoilday every by the way) i need college to start, so at least i have somethin to do!! ok well that is all folks.
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tired tired
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started out kinda iffy but fun with rollins bein late..me gettin lost AGAIN gettin to patricia's house..but we all met at BART n rollins was only like 5 min late so not bad at all..n we wnet to the city all excited...pete's first time on BART so of course i take pics..n we went n went shoppin 4 a bit..went n watched mi3 at the metreon.again dizzy but fun still i was happy...thought how odd, im just chillin with friends..no worries. we went to mel's diner after n despite the grease in the food n me 4gettin my wallet so im making peoeple pay 4 other stuff..of course id pay them back..but it was sitll all going well, i was tkaing good pics of pete n rollins eating. some amusing pics! then we take BART to ti couz to eat crepes..n were bored so i decide ill tkae out my camera..camera is not there. fuck. i left it at mels. i call 411 n finally get the number n i call n theyre like, sorry. no camera. we eat crepes. im sorta like fuck. hopefully its sitll there. i go back n drag pete n rollins with me. fuck. no camera. :(. so now i have to take my graduation money and buy a new camera b4 my mom notices. i had a lot of good pics on there. kind of scared b/c me n my friends are int hose pics n i dont want any stalkers or nething :/ n it was a sorta expensive camera n memory card n battery...n i come home, my mom has looked through my package of stuff i got 4 my bf, so of course i lie n say its 4 britt w/o breakin a sweat. but wtf..she opened the box, took it OUT of the bubble wrape..opened the box...took out the bubble wrap and paper in the bag..UNWRAPPED the thing out of hte bubble wrap..and but it back like shit..she could have at least but it back n made it look less subtle..n she yells at me 4 wanting privacy..i dont look through her packages...well now i will. im pissed. perhaps 4 no reason but im pissed. im SO glad i will not be living here nxt year. i will not be back for thanksgiving. but 4 xmas b/c it is xmas and i wnat to see my friends. they are leaving 2moro afternoon to go pick up my sister. so at least i will be alone for awhile n get to hang out w/ friens. that will make me happy. but then im going on a fuckin family vacation. well ill just bring alot of tylenol n go scuba diving and read and sleep n look at pretty things. not talk to them. all will be well rite? sorry 4 my rant. but i am pissed. i have a migrane now :/ i have been more stressed/depressed/worried as if i have senior projects due tomorrow. but thats ok b/c 2moro i will wake up n they will be at work. good day all. hope ur day went better than mine.
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pissed off pissed off
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after reading a certain friend's post about exhaustion and sleepin i realized that i do that otherwise i cant sleep b/c i will have too much racing through my mind..however this leads me to my dilemma...if i sleep when im really tired i go into a deep sleep..which leads to me dreaming more..well me waking up when im asleep so i remember my dreams..i think its a combination b/w my stress and my exhuastion...so i have very random..weird..confusing...pondorous i dont evn know how to describe them..they arent nightmares exactly but they arent happy dreams either..its always about people i know but they look different in my dreams..or theyre doin somethin they wouldnt normally do..somethin very random haha i dno but i feel very stressed/awkward/or frutrated in these dreams and it bothers me...but the only way i can sleep w/o dreaming is if im in a lighter sleep but then i cant be completely exhausted when im sleeping..but if im not completely exhausted i ownt be able to fall asleep for hours...see my dilemma? or is it just me..sorry if i wasted your time, i seem to be doing a lot of that lately... sorry, i'll try to stop or for the few that read this post you can stop hehe..
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frustrated frustrated
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...of my life i is officially closed. now im sort of in summer limbo waiting for the 18th :/ and it sux cuz i leave the 19th :( but thats ok b/c i know they will be home and that makes me happy...chapter two of my life will begin june 18..for now i will float freely and alone in limbo which will be quite an experience as it has been already.

i need to go out 2moro nite, if ne1 wants to do somethin let me know.

how do cars reproduce?

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today started out pretty bad..but afta i picked up ana at around 6? i wna say and got thai food well i watched as she ate n then got gelato and went to borders and gained lots of knowledge on random topics..VERY random topics...the day def picked up...then met up with people n saw cars! awesome movie..awesome everyone should see it...and sit through the credits haha theyre funny..so are the actual credits but afta we seriously stood outside for like over an hour and jus talked randomly it was really fun...i needed that haha it was the first time i laughed n had fun with no worries in awhile...really glad i went n makes the memories about cars that much better..so thanks 2 everyone that was there tonight..intense! HAHAHA still cracks me up. i think i shall sleep..soon. its so bad ive beeen sleepin at like 3 n waking up at like 10! >< or 11 sometimes hehe...its kold so i shall go..but im really glad they had rings at the deb party..im growin quite fond of my quarter.
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happy happy
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was the first nite i think it hit me that im leaving..i think it was the first dance in 4 years that brittany and liz werent there... and i dont know evn tho there were other freinds there it just wasnt the same...and it felt like i was out there alone with no one to dance with..esp since most people were like couple dancin which was totally cool some were kind of amusing but i dont know. it just finally hit home that im leaving my friends..and it showed me what my life was going to be like without them..it wasnt pretty. i know i have other freinds but to be honest..its just not the same, i think its just that ive known n been through so much with britt n liz that w/o them there. i feel alone, and thats prob sad but thats my life for ya haha. tho i must say the first few hours i was having fun, not thinking about nethin but the prsent..but then i started dancing and it all came back...im going to be alone nxt year..again.
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crushed crushed
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ive realized..well i knew but its kinda reoccuring to me now that im very bad at balancing my life. thats the one thing i sitll have yet to learn...hopefully soon. hopefully. sorry to all those ive been bitchy to..which is quite a few but know i'll always be here...evn tho sometimes it may not seem like it.
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thank u 4 smoking was an awesome movie, im glad i dragged my ass out of the house n went haha

day on the green was so fun, signin yearbooks..it seemd like i was back in school again soo much writing but im glad i did it n now its over wheee todds party was fun, first time i got in the pool in the 4 years of these parties..haha n i got in the hot tub at jordies im jus on a roll! :P but that day def went by hella quick n that nite was pretty fun but i havta admit not too eventful but its all good. thanks matt 4 gettin us a ride n place to crash u rock.

this summer is shapin up to be a fun one, hopefully chillin wit friends A LOT!!

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